Board Thread:Fun and Games/@comment-24651308-20170609224255/@comment-27913758-20170610202446

So lately I've been feeling shitty and guilty because of something with one of my friends who I shall not state. Hell, Wednesday night I was up for an hour because of how guilty I felt. The basic summary of it is: Vick fucked up; big time; he feels like a guilty piece of shit because of it and that it's his fault and he just wants to keep on apologising, despite knowing it won't help him or friend any. We're cool now and I can sleep without crying, but I still feel shitty and guilty about it and I honestly feel like they hate me, despite saying that they don't. Plus, a lot of other things have been kicking my ass lately (school (grades, mom being a bitch about not having a couple of shitty geography things done), dysphoria (grade 8 graduation's coming up soon, and guess who got forced back into the closet as trans by their parents and is being forced to wear a dress to grad?? That's right kids, Vick!!!), etc) which are just Lovely(TM). I've also been unmotivated as shit to do anything really; I don't feel like drawing, Kisekae-ing, creating OCs, etc. And whenever I do try those things, I become so dissatisfied with them I just quit or restart. Hell, I drew the same picture of a vent drawing I'm 9.99/10 never going to show anyone four or five times because I felt like it looked so shitty. Similar story with when I tried to draw one of my newer OCs (in case anyone was wondering, Marc, who isn't really new since I have had him for quite a while and only have gotten around to posting him here yesterday); I had to draw them three-five times but they all just looked so terrible. I remember a few months ago when I could draw something and feel good about what I drew, but now I just feel like I can't. Honestly, I feel like everyone just hates me or something and I can't talk to anyone anymore -let alone vent to anyone. So yeah, just needed to get some shit off my chest. Things are just Swell(TM).