User blog:DSZ Infinitum/Jumping Onto The Leaving Train

I started to question my presence here ever more frequently. I think it turned obsolete.

I chose to commit being a Mini-Admin, and yet I never felt any sense of duty or responsability or diligence, and ultimately end up doing nothing like I always.

Nothing really ties me to this place other than a past ambition and interaction. Not YanSim, not Kisaekae, not OCs, not RPs. I wonder what kept me here for a whole year after that one event, despite being just a passerby…

Yes, a passerby. I don't think I really did anything to distinguish myself from everyone else. Always stayed an ambiguous bystander since then, nothing worth of notice.

The bonds I forged during my stay were temporary, but valuable to me. The fact that those have been so temporary that restrains me from going beyond. They come and go. Forced inertia.

I have come to realize this place has also been a platform to a couple of major issues I had in life, so there's that too.

I could just keep going on rambling about my whole being here for a while, but my own squabbling just makes me want to kill myself more and more, so I'll cease.

With these, I came to the conclusion that leaving is affordable to me, as it wouldn't really change the current state things anyway.

Things are bound to constantly loop around themselves, but now, I'm breaking this vicious cycle of mine. One of many.

With that said, farewell.