User blog:Gamesee/Break

I am tired.

Very, very tired.

This wiki is the main reason for this, along with Hatsuharu. Although, this wiki is the only one that emotionally exhausts me. People complain about each other nearly daily, and some people who I used to respect I can't trust. I don't actually dislike or hate most users suprisingly, I just dislike their traits and/or desicions if that makes any sense.

In addition, I used to only stay up a little late with Hatsuharu. About, 10 - 11 p.m. I'd wake up at about 6 a.m. which would equal 7-8 hours of sleep. This was healthy, and I made sure to take a nap later so I wasn't too mentally exhausted to work on stuff.

But the moment I joined Yansim again, I started staying up later. And later. And later. And now my sleep schedule is 3 a.m. - 6 a.m. It has been like this for 3 weeks. Furthermore, I have started taking care of my self less, my grades have been dropping, and since I don't make myself breakfast or lunch I have only been eating one meal a day. There was even one day where I had no food because I stayed on chat, worrying about what people were saying and making sure neither me or my friends were having trouble.

To add, the drama here is just too much. I can't keep up with everything, everyone just wants to murder each other, and accusations are thrown daily at other users. I want to do something, but it is hard. I find it very hard to speak my feelings in general, which is why I simply joke about the smut on chat and I don't complain.

Lastly, so I can finish this fast, roleplays are dead. This might be more minor, but I literally came here for some users and to roleplay. I just don't have much purpose here, since I can interact with most of the users I want to on other wikis or through other social media. Plus, since it is very hard for me to recognize who is my friend and who isn't I am somewhat unsure of who I should stay for.

Anyway, this break is temporary, at least I think. I just need to get my shit together, and then I'll be back. If applicable, my OCs can be deleted until I get back, since the only person I trust to watch my OCs ever is on Hatsuharu. If you absolutely need to contact me to talk to me over something personal or smth just leave a message on my wall, or better yet contact me at Hatsuharu.  But I don't think anyone will need my for anything, haha.

So bye for now, I guess.

Tl:Dr - This wiki is fucking up my life to the point where it is unhealthy and I need a break, especially since I have no purpose here.