User blog:CorpzCry/Thank you.

NOTE: This blog post contains some personal stuff, so it will be deleted a day or two after I post this.

The title says it all, thank you everyone.

I am sure most people who read my earlier post are wondering why I am leaving in the first place. Please let me explain and tell the whole story.

So, I have been homeschooled my entire life. Which means I spend most of the day at home during the school year. Being homeschooled means that obviously, I have less of a chance to interact with people who are around my age. At first, I was never bothered by this at first, becuase I made friends in church, swimming / gymnastic lessions, and camps I went to. I was pretty normal, and felt like it, because I had a lot of people that I would interact with regularly and do things with. It was like this from when I was about six, through seventh grade. The change happened sometime when I was in eighth grade. I noticed that my friends at church (My main place where I can hope to interact with people in my general age group) started acting different. This was not their fault, becuase hey, they were just growing up and still are. They would start to do stuff that normal Junior high kids do, like act more cliquey and get a new "boyfriend/girlfriend" only to "break up" with them a week later. I thought it was pretty weird, becuase I just don't feel like I'm that kind of person who would be into that. I shook it off, being as I was (sort of) a relatively optimistic person. But, it changed the most during that summer. My peers were still growing up I mean REALLY. They all just gradually started becoming much taller and beefier like most kids do at that age. I have always been a tiny person, but it had never been like this before. It kind of felt like everone were physically and mentally becoming adults, while I sat and watched. I think it became most evident when my town's swim team started up again. The first two years I was in swim team, I had a fair amount of wins and loses. I thought that was OK because, hey, everyone wins and loses. This year however, was different. Most of the people I had to swim against were taller and stroner, so I didn't really get any wins unless I was the only one in the race or was swimming against some competitors who were less experienced. It wasn't the fact that I lost that made me feel upset. I was convinced that my swimming wasn't good enough, so I worked really hard to try to get better. I was kind of torn up about it, and started doubting my abilities and started becoming concerned about the things I was able to do. I kept feeling like that when I started High school. By this point, most of my friends had boyfriends or girlfriends and seemed to have a few cliques based on schools everyone went to and social media. Since I had none of these, I stuck out like a sore thumb. The drastic height difference at this point didn't help much either. Most of the time I would kind of just be ignored, so standing awkwardly around with nothing to do before we started became the norm. I lost faith in some of my friends I had there, and just stopped trying to get into conversations that I could barely relate to. I started feeling lonely, becuase since I became too old to go to the camps I had gone too, I wouldn't really get to meet many new people. I started questioning my maturity a lot, but I kept doing "childish" things because I like them and still do. I had a bit of a yearning to be able to do things with people around my age, since church was becoming less of an option. I started playing online games, which really made me feel glad to just do the things I love with people who share that love.

The thing that Wiki has to do with this is that my friend Construction Temmie wanted me to get a wiki account so I could edit on the Underswap wiki. This was a big thing for me, because I had always wanted to have an account for Wiki, but couldn't becuase of a crappy email. He let me use his and... BAM! Here I am. You all know the rest.

To be honest, the wiki I wanted to have an account for the most was THIS one. I liked the game and thought it would be awesome to create characters. I had actually been visitin this wiki several months prior to getting an account and I was really interested in all that was going on here and hoped to be a part of it someday. The day I got my account I was THRILLED to finally be here. It was awesome to meet all of the users I had seen in my visits here for so long, but never could. I had fun making my OCs and getting to know a few great people here who became some nice internet frriends. It felt great to have a place to go where I could have people to interact with whenever I wanted. It was like a dream come true...

The reason I am leaving is because my parents made me. They found out about my account and thought that everything I was doing was dangerous because they seem to be under the assumption that if I talk to people I know online, something bad will happen. I understand that the internet can be dangerous and that one should not give out potentially dangerous information, but I have not done that. I believe that wikis are relatively safe in this aspect, as thousands of people around the world use it. My parents took it away anyway, to protect me from "predators", which is why I am leaving.

Most people who leave this wiki leave with bad memories that bring anger and resentment. I just want all of you to know that when I am gone forever, my memories will be of good fun times.

Thank you.

I will still be here in spirit, watching all of you...